I am the mother of an autistic son. He is 23 yrs old. Your story Welcome To My World really hit home in my heart, I too have days of crying and asking God why me and why Kevin? As Kevin grows so does my faith in God grow for I have a son who does not speak much but a word or two at a time, not potty trained yet, that has been fun, doesn't dress or undress or say when he is in pain. I have to find it.

Some examples in my life are not knowing Kevin had a cyst that was draining and in process of healing, since it was really close to rectum I did'nt see it until one day he bent over to pick up a toy off the bathroom floor and I saw what looked like a second rectum, I start crying calling emergency took him in to find polyanidal cyst which is fine clean and healing oh my gosh how could my own child have an owie and me not know it? Feelings of guilt set in. Why didn't I look before now. I never thought to bend him over and look. These wake up calls are pay more attention to child and world pay more atttention to God. He is there for Kevin regularly. 

Kevin had to have 2 spinal surgeries at age 16 for scoleosis. Kevin walked all the way down the hall the very next morning with a smile on his face. He needed only a little pain meds for God was holding him and his pain. Kevin has the ability to make your heart melt with his smile and he has the most beautiful blue eyes you have ever seen. My story may seem like rambling. I am constantly in hurricane mode with my thoughts. Even now I wonder what he is doing. While I'm typing, thoughts of him are with me every minute of the day and night. However, I feel blessed to be able to be reminded daily of how unimportant our own desires really are. I have a son that talks to Jesus and God without being able to talk to us humans. Kevin tells me granny and grandpa are with Jesus also and dancing and saying wheeeeeeeee,

I loved the short part of your story and will love to read the book. Please hurry. Thank you for reminding me I share thoughts and feelings with other women who also want to be the very best they can be with what God has chosen for them. Thank you.